She was smiling, laughing. Tommorow is our big day. I knew she was scared of the cesarian, hoping everybody would be all right, thinking the bad thing, what might happen. She is sleeping right now, I feel more relaxed but I still could not sleep until now, 2.30 am.
Edhie said, “Tommorow you are going to be a father, do many smiles”. I smiled looking his text to me while we were discussing about his house, the skylight, how the skylight will lighten statue of Virgin Mary. I knew him since 3 years ago, suddenly we met in one time, talking and discussing about how warmth one house should be, he is like my family, full of warmth and compassion to the people around him, his aura is positive, hoping the great for future of his family, friends.
After Hearing him, I just noticed that I have been quite nervous, seldom smile, and bitter, to feel afraid of many things which is unsure. I tried to cover with smile which was covering sadness. I was dishonest about my self. I am looking for my light, in the abyss, dragging myself deep to nowhere, until just last night, Laurensia sent me the story about red the little reminded us about cherry. how she has been crying all of the time. Here is the story
I love you, Laurensia, Miracle, Cherry. Thank you Edhie, I will do many smiles. :) thank u for the pray.