Studying in ITB is a great privilege. I was exposed with lots of good lecturers, talented friends and competitive environments. I have seen lots of exquisite skills by my friends. It is not only architectural related. Some of them can play music very greatly, another are good at video mapping, while the other masters France. That kind of environment makes me realize how lacking in skill I am. I realize that i need to learn more and more. I believe that this summer holiday is just perfect for that. I have approximately 3 months to pursue whatever i want. Then come the question, what do i want to achieve by the end of summer.
Lots of my friends have come out with great plan, ranging from exchange to Russia, to volunteering in International event. I also want that. I want a wondrous and unforgettable summer this year. But i do not know in what form will this summer be. Then I do my own reflection and ask, “what is it that i love the most? What is it that I want to be good at? What is it that makes my beloved one proud?” After lots of contemplation, I come to realize it is architecture i want to be good at. Since i was a kid, i have loved building bridges, houses, castle, etc from wooden blocks. As i grew, i found affection in drawing -it might not be a good drawing- but i love it. Then after going to university and finally be able to taste what architecture feels like, I understand it is super painful and tiring. Lots of sleep deprivations, stressful studio hours and what not. But then, i love it -Am i crazy? Maybe-. I love stroking my pencil and create a line. I love letting my imagination roams free. There is always a sense of pride looking at my work. This is what i want to do in my holidays, as what i want to do for the rest of my life -or until i retire for that matter-.
Then i wonder how I can improve my architecture skill. I have lots of options, starting from taking software course, to joining some architectural competitions. But then, I do not feel satisfied with those options. Taking software course can be done while i study at ITB, as well as joining competitions. I need something exclusive that can be done only in this holidays. It starts as a rhetoric idea, “hey, why not look for intern?” But as time goes by, it becomes one of the most viable and tempting options. By becoming intern, I can taste firsthand what it would feel like working in architectural firm. I can also gain more experiences and skill that would become very useful in the future. Last but not least, i can build more connection by meeting another fellow interns.
Another reasons I want to take internship is to validate my insecurity. I have heard that working environment often is a lot harsher than when you are in educational institution. There are a little bit of myself that doubt whether i will survive or not. I have been struggling quite painfully in studio. I want to make sure whether passion is enough drive to survive in architecture career or not. Honestly, lots of my friends have rather give up on the idea of being architect. It creeps a small part of me. Thus i need to do this in order to know for sure that architecture is my place. I do not want to regret my decision in the future.